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Reading List 11 of 2022

November 30, 2022

RIP, Lee Bontecou (1931–2022), American sculptor; Irene Cara (1959–2022), American singer and actress.

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Covers from 11.10.22 through 11.30.22                              

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I/we own 4 of these items. I watched 17 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 4 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 1 items.

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Videos ~ Mental Health:

  1. Mayim Bialik || I Was Wrong About Open Relationships
  2. Mayim Bialik || Remembering My Wedding After Divorce
  • Mayim Bialik’s Breakdown | Dr. Gabor Maté: Who Gets Sick, and How to Prevent It
  • The Myth of Normal with Daniel Maté by Holistic Life Navigation

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Garment design:

  1. Beginners’ Saori Clothing Design by Saorinomori/Sakaiseikisangyo Co.
  2. [Video] Make a T-shirt Bigger: 5 Ways by Catherine Sews
  3. [Video] Steeking for Armholes by Alla Hale
  4. [Video] Sweater Upcycling! by Catherine Sews

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Banwcotreb:

  1. [Video] Smashing English! | The 5 Hardest British Accents to Understand!
  2. [Video] Let Them Talk TV presents… A Londoner Explains how to speak Cockney
  3. [Video] Let Them Talk TV presents… RP [Received Pronunciation] vs. Posh English

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Fiction:

  1. Spoiler Alert by Olivia Dade
  2. The Work Wife by Alison B. Hart

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Miscellaneous:

  1. A Full Life: Reflections at 90 by Jimmy Carter
  2. Also a Poet: Frank O’Hara, My Father, and Me by Ada Calhoun
  3. How to Slay a Dragon: A Fantasy Hero’s Guide to the Real Middle Ages by Caitlin Stevenson
  4. Lost in Translation: An Illustrated Compendium of Untranslatable Words from Around the World by Ella Frances Sanders
  5. [Video] Last Week Tonight with John Oliver, 13 Nov 2022: The Monarchy

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 128 works; 2,714,008 words

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Films I tried to watch, but bailed on:

  1. Disenchanted // Back in the day, I loved Enchanted, so was genuinely excited to see this! (Spouse read the reviews, and was then meh.) So much cringe … I lasted 20 minutes //
  2. Marcel the Shell with Shoes On, directed by Dean Fleischer-Camp // Because Spouse seemed to like it, I suffered through ½ before I just couldn’t continue //

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TV & Films:

  1. The Crown ~ 5.01–5.06
  2. GBBO ~ 13.08–13.10
  3. Emma., directed by Autumn de Wilde
  4. Enola Holmes 2, directed by Harry Bradbeer
  5. Good Night Oppy, directed & co-written by Ryan White
  6. Pitch Perfect 2, directed by Elizabeth Banks

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Reading List 10 of 2022

October 29, 2022

RIP, Sacheen Littlefeather (1946–2022), First Nations (American) civil rights activist, actress, model;    Loretta Lynn (1932–2022), American singer-songwriter;    Tigre Mashaal-Lively (1985–2022), multidisciplinary artist and community activist, most recently of Santa Fe NM.

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Covers from 10.2.22 through 10.29.22                 

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I/we own 2 of these items. I watched 25 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 7 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 3 items.

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Videos ~ Garment Design:

  1. Buying a Knockoff of My Own Dress by Bernadette Banner
  2. Lacy Edwardian Blouses are … COMPLICATED by Bernadette Banner
  3. Dress Historian Analyzes ‘Historical’ Film Costumes by Bernadette Banner
  4. 5 Historical Films That Got the Costumes RIGHT. by Bernadette Banner
  5. Every Jane Austen Adaptation Ranked from Worst to Best by Ms Mojo
  6. The Flirtatious Regency Balls of Pride & Prejudice | Having a Ball by Real Royalty
  7. Redesigning Historical Romance Novel Covers to be Actually Historical by Bernadette Banner
  8. Redesigning “Historical” Halloween Costumes According to Actual Historical Evidence: Men’s Edition by Bernadette Banner
  9. fridgetown handwarmers by HandmadebyCarolyn
  10. How to upcycle a linen shirt by Repair What You Wear
  11. Upcycling a cashmere cardigan by Repair What You Wear
  12. Upcycling a shrunk jumper by Repair What You Wear
  13. DIY Sweater Upcycling by Jan Howell
  14. Upcycled t-shirt to tank top by Jan Howell
  15. Crazy scrap quilting by Jan Howell

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Videos ~ Garment Repair, etc.:

  1. How to mend sports shoes by Repair What You Wear
  2. Running shoes repair by Repair What You Wear
  3. Woven fabrics – Plain & Twill weave by Repair What You Wear
  4. How to fix frayed jeans hem by Repair What You Wear
  5. How to take in jeans at the waist by Jan Howell

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Banwcotreb:

  1. Watercolour Workshop: Projects and Interpretations by Ann Blockley
  2. [Fiction] The Bookshop of Second Chances by Jackie Fraser
  3. [Fiction] The Last Dance of the Debutante by Julia Kelly
  4. [Fiction] The Limits of Enchantment by Graham Joyce [2005]
  5. [Film] LOTR: Return of the King, directed by Peter Jackson

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Fiction:

  1. Once There Were Wolves by Charlotte McConaghy
  2. Pale Morning Light with Violet Swan by Deborah Reed
  3. Remarkably Bright Creatures by Shelby Van Pelt
  4. The Seven Day Switch by Kelly Harms

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SFF:

  1. An Apprentice to Elves by Sarah Monette and Elizabeth Bear
  2. Elder Race by Adrian Tchaikovsky

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Music ~ documentaries:

  1. Creedence Clearwater Revival: Travelin’ Band at the Royal Albert Hall [1970], directed by Bob Smeaton
  2. Patch CV: Controlling Voltage, directed by David Elliott Johnson and Britt Thomas McTammany

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 117 works; 3,107,094 words

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TV & Films:

  1. Derry Girls ~ 3.01
  2. GBBO ~ 13.03–13.07
  3. The Muppet Show ~ 1.01–1.02
  4. Pitch Perfect, directed by Jason Moore

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Reading List 9 of 2022

September 30, 2022

RIP, Valerie Maynard (1937–2022), Black American sculptor, printmaker & designer; Hilary Mantel (1952–2022), British novelist; Coolio (1963–2022), Black American rapper.  

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Covers from 9.19.22 through 9.30.22                    

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I/we own 3 of these items. I watched 12 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 2 of the books.

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SFF:

  1. All the Seas of the World by Guy Gavriel Kay
  2. The Grief of Stones by Katherine Addison

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Miscellaneous:

  1. Illustrating Children’s Books by Martin Salisbury

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 86 works; 1,981,769 words

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Garments ~ YouTube videos:

  1. Guide to winingas for early medieval and dark age living history by Mike Everest
  2. Guide to WW1 British & Commonwealth puttees by Mike Everest
  3. Pattern Webbing Assembly [WW1] by Mike Everest
  4. Leg wraps: How and why to do them by The Bearded Axe
  5. How to pattern ANY kind of flared skirt | How the math works by Mariah Pattie

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Banwcotreb:

  • [Video] Owain Glyndŵr day, 16 Sep 2022 ~ Michael Sheen

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TV:

  1. One-Minute Time Machine, directed by Devon Avery
  2. Super Rhino, written & directed by Nathan Greno
  3. GBBO ~ 13.01–13.02
  4. LOTR: Rings of Power ~ 1.01–most of 1.02 [until the orc]
  5. Our Great National Parks ~ Monterey Bay National Marine Sanctuary; Chilean Patagonia

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Films:

  1. LOTR: The Fellowship of the Ring, directed by Peter Jackson
  2. LOTR: The Two Towers, directed by Peter Jackson

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Reading List 8 of 2022

August 31, 2022

RIP, Nichelle Nichols (1932–2022), Olivia Newton-John (1948–2022), Anne Heche (1969–2022).  

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Covers from 8.4.22 through 8.31.22                      

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I/we own 4 of these items. I watched 12 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 8 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 3 items.

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Garment Design ~ YouTube videos by Mariah Pattie:

  1. Workshop – The key to *actually* sewing your own clothes
  2. Can I sew an entire capsule wardrobe?
  3. Sewing a capsule wardrobe: Self-critique and review
  4. Designing a capsule wardrobe: (a) Viking/Norse, (b) Medieval, (c) 18th century, (d) 1860s
  1. “Emma.” 2020 wardrobe analysis and overview of Regency fashion
  2. All about custom printed fabric…

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Art:

  1. Bessie MacNicol: New Woman by Ailsa Tanner [1998] ~~~ 19th century Scottish oil & watercolor painter; associate of the Glasgow Boys {Banwcotreb}

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Photography | Fine Art:

  1. Brett Weston | Photographs by Merle Armitage [1956]
  2. [Documentary] Ansel Adams, written & directed by Ric Burns [2002]

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Poetry:

  1. Advice from the Lights by Stephanie Burt
  2. Come-hither Honeycomb by Erin Belieu
  3. Mosses and Lichens by Devin Johnston
  4. Sweetgum & Lightning by Rodney Terich Leonard

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Music:

  1. Rock & Roll Highway: The Robbie Robertson Story by Sebastian Robertson, illustrated by Adam Gustavson
  2. Redbone: The True Story of a Native American Rock Band, written by Christian Staebler & Sonia Paolini, art by Thibault Balaby
  3. [Documentary] Rumble: The Indians Who Rocked the World, directed & co-written by Catherine Bainbridge

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SFF:

  1. A Face Like Glass by Frances Hardinge
  2. On the Edge of Gone by Corinne Duyvis

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Fiction:

  1. Not Now, Not Ever by Lily Anderson
  2. The Sea Queen by Linnea Hartsuyker

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Miscellaneous:

  1. AndBloom: The Art of Aging Unapologetically by Denise Boomkens
  2. Miracles of Our Own Making: A History of [British] Paganism by Liz Williams

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 128 works; 3,945,433 words

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TV:

  1. Blown Away ~ 3.09–3.10
  2. Never Have I Ever: season 3

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Reading List 7 of 2022

July 30, 2022

Covers from 7.10.22 through 7.30.22                    

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I/we own 5 of these items. I watched 7 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 15 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 8 items.

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Art:

  1. Joan Mitchell by Judith E. Bernstock [1988]
  2. The Paintings of Joan Mitchell, edited by Jane Livingston [2002]
  3. Richard Diebenkorn: The Berkeley Years, 1953–1966, by Fine Arts Museums of San Francisco
  4. Sophie Taeuber-Arp: Living Abstraction, edited by Anne Umland and Walburga Krupp
  5. Why is Art full of naked people? by Susie Hodge

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SFF:

  1. The Charmed Wife by Olga Grushin
  2. Displacement by Kiku Hughes
  3. Elatsoe by Darcie Little Badger
  4. Exo by Fonda Lee
  5. The Four Profound Weaves by R. B. Lemberg
  6. Game Changer by Neal Shusterman
  7. The Library of the Dead by T. L. Huchu
  8. Nettle & Bone by T. Kingfisher
  9. The Relentless Moon by Mary Robinette Kowal

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Romance:

  1. A Duke in Disguise by Cat Sebastian
  2. Peter Cabot Gets Lost by Cat Sebastian {queer}
  3. Tommy Cabot Was Here by Cat Sebastian {queer}
  4. Unmasked by the Marquess by Cat Sebastian //protagonist is nonbinary//

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Fiction:

  1. The Book of Lost Friends by Lisa Wingate
  2. The Half-Drowned King by Linnea Hartsuyker
  3. The Housekeeper and the Professor by Yōko Ogawa, translated by Stephen Snyder

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Miscellaneous:

  1. Atlas of the Heart by Brené Brown
  2. Guide to Self-Publishing Poetry by Roy E. Peterson
  3. The Invisible Kingdom: Reimagining Chronic Illness by Meghan O’Rourke
  4. Postcolonial Astrology by Alice Sparkly Kat
  5. Symbol by Angus Hyland and Steven Bateman

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Films & TV:

  1. 22 vs. Earth, directed by Kevin Nolting
  2. Burrow, written & directed by Madeline Sharafian
  3. Coco, directed by Lee Unkrich
  4. Emma., directed by Autumn de Wilde
  5. Everything Everywhere All at Once, written & directed by Daniel Kwan and Daniel Scheinert
  6. Good Luck to You, Leo Grande; directed by Sophie Hyde
  7. Baymax! ~ 1.01
  8. Blown Away ~ 3.01–3.08
  9. Ms. Marvel ~ 1.03

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Reading List 6 of 2022

June 30, 2022

RIP, Roe v. Wade, 1973–2022.

But also, we have always been at war with Eastasia.

{My 1970s-80s childhood, filled with dystopian ‘fiction’, helps me cope with 21st century’s Shitshow World, yet again.}

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Covers from 6.9.22 through 6.30.22                      

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I/we own 6 of these items. I watched 7 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 9 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 3 items.

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Art:

  1. The Baltimore Album Quilt Tradition by Nancy E. Davis of the Maryland Historical Society [2000]
  2. Sculpture in Fiber: 12 Artists Working with Off-Loom Techniques [1972]

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Art – How to:

  1. Get Started with Gouache by Emma Block
  2. House of Print [block printing] by Molly Mahon
  3. I Spy DIY Style by Jenni Radosevich
  4. Watercolor Life by Emma Block

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SFF:

  1. A Deadly Education by Naomi Novik
  2. Imperfect Commentaries by Ruthanna Emrys
  3. The Witness for the Dead by Katherine Addison

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Miscellaneous:

  1. Dæmon Voices: On Stories and Storytelling by Philip Pullman
  2. Remain in Love: Talking Heads, Tom Tom Club, Tina by Chris Frantz
  3. Something Fabulous by Alexis Hall {queer Regency romance}
  4. [Poetry] The Wild Fox of Yemen by Threa Almontaser

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Banwcotreb:

  1. Hild: A Novel by Nicola Griffith
  2. Scotland: A Literary Guide for Travellers by Garry MacKenzie

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 116 works; 3,256,880 words

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Films & TV:

  1. The Dish, directed by Rob Sitch [2001]
  2. Finding Dory, directed by Andrew Stanton
  3. Good Luck to You, Leo Grande; directed by Sophie Hyde
  4. Lamp Life, written & directed by Valerie LaPointe
  5. Pitch Perfect, directed by Jason Moore
  6. Sing 2, directed by Garth Jennings
  7. Toy Story 3, directed by Lee Unkrich //dreadful//
  8. Toy Story 4, directed by Josh Cooley //good stuff//
  9. A Fan’s Guide to Ms. Marvel
  10. Ms. Marvel ~ 1.01-1.02

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Reading List 5 of 2022

May 31, 2022

RIP, Andy Fletcher (1961–2022), English musician [Depeche Mode]; Naomi Judd (1946–2022), country music singer, born in eastern Kentucky.

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Covers from 5.6.22 through 5.31.22                      

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I/we own 1 of these items. I watched 12 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 10 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 5 items.

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Art ~ Fiber ~~Videos~~:

  1. Free Piecing a Quilt by Man Sewing with Rob Appell
  2. Quilting for Beginners: Piecing by JoAnn Fabric & Craft Stores
  3. Tutorial: Jean Wells’s No Ruler Cutter & Piecing {first 13 minutes of 51 total}

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Art:

  1. Alice Neel’s Women by Carolyn Carr [2002]
  2. Mixed Media Color Studio by Kellee Wynne Conrad
  3. Suzanne Valadon: Model, Painter, Rebel, edited by Nancy Ireson
  4. Weaving Modernism: Postwar Tapestry Between Paris and New York by K. L. H. Wells

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SFF:

  1. Message Not Found by Dante Medema
  2. Paladin’s Hope by T. Kingfisher
  3. The Raven and the Reindeer by T. Kingfisher

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Fiction:

  1. Madam by Phoebe Wynne
  2. The Seven Day Switch by Kelly Harms
  3. Vigil Harbor by Julia Glass

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Miscellaneous:

  1. The Chinese Thought of It by Ting-xing Ye
  2. A Splendid Intelligence: The Life of Elizabeth Hardwick by Cathy Curtis
  3. Talk to Me Always: Poetry, Prose, and Photography by Alexi Lubomirski

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Banwcotreb:

  1. Acid Plaid: New Scottish Writing, edited by Harry Ritchie [1997]
  2. Harry Potter and History, edited by Nancy R. Reagin [2011]
  3. Poems from Cardiff, selected by Amy Wack

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 105 works; 2,872,600 words

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Films & TV:

  1. Drive My Car, co-written & directed by Ryusuke Hamaguchi
  2. Fantastic Beasts: The Secrets of Dumbledore, directed by David Yates
  3. George Carlin’s American Dream, directed by Judd Apatow & Michael Bonfiglio
  4. Operation Mincemeat, directed by John Madden
  5. Turning Red, directed by Domee Shi
  6. Julia ~ 1.06–1.08
  7. The Great Pottery Throw Down, seasons 4 & 5
  8. Nova’s Dinosaur Apocalypse: 2 episodes
  9. Animal: Marsupials

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Reading List 4 of 2022

April 30, 2022

RIP, Letizia Battaglia (1935–2022), Italian photographer & photojournalist; Taylor Hawkins (1972–2022), drummer for Foo Fighters; Richard Howard, American poet & translator (1929–2022)

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Covers from 3.30.22 through 4.30.22                    

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I watched 9 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 9 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 11 items.

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Art ~ Fiber:

  1. Fiber: Sculpture, 1960–Present, edited by Jenelle Porter
  2. Textiles: Collection of the Museum of International Folk Art by Bobbie Sumberg, photos by Addison Doty

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Art:

  1. The Bird King: An Artist’s Notebook by Shaun Tan
  2. Joan Mitchell | I carry my landscapes around with me ~ David Zwirner Books
  3. Mickalene Thomas | I Can’t See You Without Me ~ Wexner Center for the Arts
  4. Revolution in the Making: Abstract Sculpture by Women, 1947–2016, organized & edited by Paul Schimmel and Jenni Sorkin
  5. Women in Abstraction, edited by Christine Macel and Karolina Ziebinska-Lewandowska

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Fiction:

  1. Getting His Game Back by Gia de Cadenet
  2. The Institute by Stephen King
  3. Loveless by Alice Oseman {protagonist, Georgia, is aro-ace}
  4. [SFF] Fireheart Tiger by Aliette de Bodard
  5. [SFF] Thorn by Intisar Khanani

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Culture & History:

  1. Follow the Flock: How Sheep Shaped Human Civilization by Sally Coulthard
  2. The Language of the Goddess by Marija Gimbutas [1989]
  3. The Slavs by Marija Gimbutas [1971]

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Miscellaneous:

  1. 50 Unbelievable Women… by Saundra Mitchell
  2. How to Do Nothing: Resisting the Attention Economy by Jenny Odell
  3. Waterlight: Selected Poems by Kathleen Jamie
  4. Why Art Cannot Be Taught: A Handbook for Art Students by James Elkins [2001]

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Miscellaneous ~ Videos:

  1. 200 Songs that ’80s Kids Grew Up With by Jillboard 100
  2. Top 80 Songs You Didn’t Know Were Covers and Their Originals by Isiajno
  3. Why pop music is obsessed with this one note by Andrew Huang

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 104 works; 4,072,603 words

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Films & TV:

  1. Portait of a Lady on Fire, directed by Céline Sciamma
  2. Turning Red, directed by Domee Shi
  3. Harry Potter 20th Anniversary: Return to Hogwarts, directed by Casey Patterson, et al.
  4. Julia ~ 1.01–1.05
  5. Miracle Workers ~ 1.01–1.07, 2.01, 2.02, 3.01
  6. Welcome to Earth ~ 1.01, 1.06
  7. The Great Pottery Throw Down, season 1; ½ of seasons 2 & 3

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Reading List 3 of 2022

March 25, 2022

RIP, Urzo (1927–2022), our neighbor, who lived independently in her own apartment since being widowed in 1994

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Covers from 3.3.22 through 3.24.22                      

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I/we own 2 of these items. I watched 8 things via streaming/Instagram/YouTube. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 3 of the books. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 7 items.

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Fashion & Fiber Arts:

  1. Lithuanian National Costume by Anastasia Tamošaitienė and Antanas Tamošaitis* [1979]

*married couple, Canadian-Lithuanian, who were tapestry weavers & painters

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Fashion & Fiber Arts ~~Videos~~:

  1. 5 Weeks of Wardrobe Planning Tips by Seamwork [series]
  2. 7 Tips to Help You Stop Hating Your Wardrobe… by Odessa Denby

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Fiction:

  1. Shadow Life, written by Hiromi Goto, illustrated by Ann Xu [2017 grad of MICA]
  2. Space Opera by Catherynne M. Valente

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Baltic:

  1. Amber & Rye: A Baltic Food Journey by Zuza Zak
  2. Estonia, Latvia, Lithuania, and Poland, edited by Amy McKenna
  3. The Latvians in America, 1640–1973, compiled & edited by Maruta Kārklis, et al. [1974]
  4. Lithuania – Cultures of the World series, 2nd ed. – by Sakina Kagda and Zawiah Abdul Latif [2007]

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Miscellaneous:

  1. Dandelion & Quince by Michelle McKenzie, photos by Rick Poon
  2. Micromastery by Robert Twigger
  3. Modern Art in Eastern Europe: From the Baltic to the Balkans, c. 1890–1939 by S. A. Mansbach [1999]
  4. Myth in Surrealist Painting, 1929–1939 by Whitney Chadwick [1980]

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~ AO3 Fanfics ~

  • Harry Potter  // read 69 works; 2,830,753 words

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Films & TV:

  1. Emma., directed by Autumn de Wilde
  2. Bao, written & directed by Domee Shi
  3. Belfast, written & directed by Kenneth Branagh {heartbreaking in the best way}
  4. Embracing the Panda, directed by Erica Milsom
  5. Ghostbusters: Afterlife, directed by Jason Reitman  {awful – I kept falling asleep}
  6. Turning Red, directed by Domee Shi  {Spouse liked it even more than me}
  7. Welcome to Earth ~ 1.02–1.05

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Dream: 3.10.2022

March 11, 2022

I’m on a train whose interior is spacious enough to be a train station waiting room. Clumps of people are milling about, but there’s also lots of open space. There are no seats.

Abruptly (at a stop?), people flood in. The open spaces fill up.

Two persons crowd me on either side. Hurriedly, I fumble in my purse for my mask. I drop it. Someone steps on it.  

I get out my second mask. It slips out of my fingers.

In my purse I know I have a 3rd mask, but I’m afraid to lose it, too.

But there’s all these people! Up close! No one is wearing a mask.

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Now I’m sitting, backpack purse in my lap. I grab my last mask, which is blue, and awkwardly hold it against my face. It’s not sufficient, it’s not good, but it’s something.

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The woman to my left eyes me compassionately, asks me if I’m immuno-compromised. Hell, maybe I am, I don’t know for sure, but I say Yes. She says she’ll get off at the next stop; she walks away. Other people leave the area too. I relax a tiny bit.

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Later, I exit the train. I realize the station is completely unfamiliar — I have no idea where I am.

I wake up.

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NOTES:

I’m still double-masking whenever I leave the apartment, even to get the mail (inside), or take out the recycling (outside). I wear a KN95, covered with a cloth mask.

For the past ~7 months, I’ve only entered enclosed spaces for medical appointments; brief library visits to pick up held books. No shopping. No coffee shops or restaurants. No cinema. No grocery. No florist or plant nursery. (Dammit.)

If I’m on a walk, and there’s no one around, I usually take the masks off — no matter what I’ve tried, my glasses fog up, impairing my visibility. Masks also jam the gears in my brain, even after 2 years. It’s super annoying, as I was sure my brain would eventually get accustomed to them. Nope.

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I don’t carry extra masks in my purse.

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In the dream, surprisingly, it was my real backpack purse. Usually in dreams, even items I always have handy — wallet, keys, phone — appear as generic versions completely unlike the real things.

Maybe this happened because I recently decided I should name my purse. It’s accompanied me on many adventures in various places during the 16 years I’ve had it. It’s only ~2 years younger than my car, and my car has always had a name.  

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The 3rd mask was blue fabric, heathered. Not quite denim, not quite teal, but something similar.

I don’t wear any cloth masks with medium blue/teal in them. I rotate between 4: pink/aqua/green floral on ivory, lime batik, orange batik; and the one I wear most often, green leaves on white.  

Notable colors in dreams are significant, due to my synesthesia. So, what could a blue/teal mask mean?

{I took a break to consider this, and then a visual migraine started up. Black/white/red/blue blinking zigzags in my right-center visual field are disordering my thinking and typing. Ugh.}

I’ve been working on a project with my personal-history photos since last summer. It took me months to recognize that I used to wear medium-to-deep teal as often as I did … not simply because I like the color. (Or because it’s my eye color.) I wore teal because it felt protective. I felt like I was protected … from ordinary levels of animus anyway. I felt like I could face … people [difficult people, I mean] … and keep my equanimity, when I wore deep teal.

These days, I don’t even own any garments that are deep teal.

I do have several medium teal/aqua garments, very friendly, that I’ve been wearing for years. The rug in my studio is medium aqua and spring green.

‘Denim blue’, for clothes, is sort of interesting. All my jeans are dark wash, so not ‘denim blue’. When I think of shades of blue I like, there’s a bunch: indigo (deep), navy/midnight, cobalt, royal,  azure, all the ceruleans, sky, cloud blue (pale). Not ‘denim’, though.  

In the dream, though, I think the color of the 3rd mask was protective.

Maybe it was suggesting I’m in flux? I no longer need protection from difficult people, but the world can still be overwhelming enough that I might need help getting (or recovering the feeling of) ‘grounded’.

I do have 2 events coming up that I’ve been anxious about. Masks are required, so that specific concrete fear is irrelevant.

Maybe I’m approaching a different sort of equanimity. I can roll with what comes, hope for a bit of kindness or luck, and hold fast to the boundaries I know I need.

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Not recognizing the train station I stepped off into, well, that’s just the pandemic, surely. I haven’t figured out a framework for (thinking of) my life, now that The Before Times have stopped existing.

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