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Reading List 11 of 2018

November 4, 2018

Covers the period from 10.13.2018 through 11.3.18


I own 3 of these items. I watched 4 items in the cinema/on Netflix/Amazon/HBO/YouTube/ Vimeo. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 8 of the books and movies. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 9 items.



***Rest in Peace & Power, Ntozake Shange (1948–2018)***



  1. Anything that Burns You: A Portrait of Lola Ridge, Radical Poet by Terese Svoboda
  2. Conversations with Lucille [Clifton], edited by Michael S. Glaser
  3. Feeding the Flying Fanellis by Kate Hosford; illustrated by Cosei Kawa
  4. Good Woman: Poems and a Memoir, 1969–1980 by Lucille Clifton
  5. Late in the Day: Poems 2010–2014 by Ursula K. Le Guin
  6. The Man Who Heard the Land by Diane Glancy {FN–Cherokee}
  7. Native Guard by Natasha Trethewey
  8. Nejma by Nayyira Waheed
  9. Selected Poems II, 1976–1986 by Margaret Atwood
  10. Sharks in the Rivers by Ada Limón
  11. So Far So Good: Final Poems, 2014–2018 by Ursula K. Le Guin
  12. To Make a Prairie: Essays on Poets, Poetry, and Country Living by Maxine Kumin



  1. Ant-Man and the Wasp, directed by Peyton Reed
  2. Colette, directed by Wash Westmoreland
  3. Table 19, directed by Jeffrey Blitz
  4. Tea with the Dames, directed by Roger Michell
  5. [TV] Anne with an ‘E’, created by Moira Walley-Beckett; season 1



  1. 1000 Books to Read Before You Die* by James Mustich
  2. The Deepest Well: Healing the Long-term Effects of Childhood Adversity by Nadine Burke Harris, M.D.
  3. The Power of the Avant-Garde: Now and Then | Centre for Fine Arts, Brussels, Belgium
  4. The Promise of Failure: One Writer’s Perspective on Not Succeeding by John McNally
  5. Stet: A Memoir by Diana Athill
  6. Ursula K. Le Guin | Conversations on Writing, with David Naimon
  7. [Fiction] Every Last Secret by Linda Rodriguez {author is FN–Cherokee & Latinx}



*By my count, 575 of those authors are White Guys (21 of whom wrote about various wars. 412+ were dead White Guys, not including 19 ancient Greeks and Romans). I’ve not read the vast majority of their works, nor intend to.

I have read 238 of the [1000] books, and 98 of the “Further Reading”/”Try” entries. Of those, 153 were written by women.

I’m curious about an additional 87 books, of which 42 were written by women.

No Octavia Butler??!? No poetry from women of color?!! No First Nations women at all??!



Reading List 10 of 2018

October 8, 2018

Covers the period from 9.8.2018 through 10.5.18


I own 7 of these items. I watched 3 items in the cinema/on Netflix/Amazon/HBO/YouTube/ Vimeo. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 11 of the books and movies. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 14 items.



***Happy Indigenous Peoples Day***




First Nations:


  1. New Poets of Native Nations, edited by Heid E. Erdrich
  2. Sister Nations: Native American Women Writers on Community, edited by Heid Erdrich and Laura Tohe




  1. Whale Rider, written & directed by Niki Caro
  2. The Wild Parrots of Telegraph Hill, directed by Judy Irving





  1. Can You Learn to be Lucky? By Karla Starr
  2. Composing a Life by Mary Catherine Bateson
  3. Meghan: A Hollywood Princess by Andrew Morton
  4. The Montgomery Bus Boycott and the Women Who Started It: A Memoir by Jo Ann Gibson Robinson
  5. Multicultural States: Rethinking Difference and Identity, edited by David Bennett
  6. Playing to the Camera: Film Actors Discuss Their Craft, ed. Bert Cardullo, et al. {final 1/3 only}
  7. The Recovery: Intoxication and its Aftermath by Leslie Jamison






  1. Dear White People, written & directed by Justin Simien
  2. The House with a Clock in Its Walls, directed by Eli Roth
  3. Ocean’s 8, directed by Gary Ross
  4. Victoria & Abdul, directed by Stephen Frears
  5. Why My Videos Look the Way They Do [music & visual art], by Nahre Sol
  6. [TV] The Great British Baking Show, seasons: 5, 1, 2, 3, 4




  1. Essential Essays by Adrienne Rich
  2. Poetic Process by George Whalley [1967]
  3. Tess Gallagher | Soul Barnacles: 10 More Years with Ray [Carver], edited by Greg Simon


Poetry ~ collections:


  1. how to love the empty air by Cristin O’Keefe Aptowicz
  2. Dance of Fire by Lola Ridge [1935]
  3. The New Bread Loaf Anthology of Contemporary [1999] American Poetry, edited by Michael Collier and Stanley Plumly
  4. reduced to joy by Mark Nepo
  5. Willingly by Tess Gallagher



Poetry ~ journals:


  1. Passager, 2018 poetry contest
  2. Poetry, June 2018 {FN–various}
  3. Poets & Writers, Sep/Oct 2018
  4. Tin House, Fall 2018: Poison




  1. [SFF] Revenant Gun: Machineries of Empire 3 by Yoon Ha Lee {author is autistic}
  2. [SFF] Rogue Protocol: Murderbot Diaries 3 by Martha Wells
  3. [SFF] The Secret City by Carol Emshwiller
  4. [YA] Not Now, Not Ever by Lily Anderson



SFF by Ursula K. Le Guin:


  1. A Fisherman of the Inland Sea: Stories
  2. Four Ways to Forgiveness



Reading List 9 of 2018

September 4, 2018

Covers the period from 8.4.2018 through 9.3.18


I own 6 of these items. I watched 8 items in the cinema/on Netflix/Amazon/HBO/YouTube/ Vimeo. I read 1 online fanfiction. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 12 of the books and movies. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 16 items.






Maryland & marshes:


  1. Between Land and Sea: The Great Marsh by Dorothy Kerper Monnelly [Massachusetts]
  2. The Darkroom: Iconic Photographs from 7 Baltimore Sun Photographers
  3. The Great Marsh by David W. Harp [Eastern Shore, Md.]
  4. The Mid-Atlantic States of America: People, Politics, and Power by Neal R. Peirce, et al. {chapter on Maryland only}
  5. The Nanticoke: Portrait of a Chesapeake River by David W. Harp and Tom Horton
  6. Sonnets of the Chesapeake: Poems by James Walter Peirce





  1. The ABCs of Autism Acceptance by Max Sparrow {author is autistic}
  2. No You Don’t: Essays from an Unstrange Mind by Max Sparrow
  3. The Adult Learner, 6th edition, by Malcolm S. Knowles
  4. America’s Greatest Library: An Illustrated History of the Library of Congress by John Y. Cole
  5. Technologies of the Self: A Seminar with Michel Foucault, edited by Luther H. Martin, et al.
  6. [Fiction] A Duke by Default by Alyssa Cole {heroine has ADHD}
  7. [Memoir] Confessions of a Prairie Bitch by Alison Arngrim






  1. Bend It Like Beckham, directed by Gurinder Chadha
  2. The Circle, directed by James Ponsoldt
  3. Crazy Rich Asians, directed by Jon M. Chu
  4. The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society, directed by Mike Newell
  5. Hannah Gadsby: Nanette
  6. Leading Lady Parts, written & directed by Jessica Swale
  7. Love, Simon, directed by Greg Berlanti
  8. Mamma Mia! Here We Go Again, written & directed by Ol Parker
  9. Me & Orson Welles, directed by Richard Linklater
  10. Miss Sloane, directed by John Madden
  11. To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before, directed by Susan Johnson
  12. Won’t You Be My Neighbor? [Mister Rogers], written & directed by Morgan Neville





  1. Arts of the Possible: Essays and Conversations by Adrienne Rich
  2. Discussions of Poetry: Rhythm and Sound, edited by George Hemphill [1961]
  3. The Material of Poetry: Sketches for a Philosophical Poetics by Gerald L. Bruns


Poetry ~ collections:


  1. Coming of Age: New & Selected Poems by Babette Deutsch [1959]
  2. Prefabrications by Josephine Miles
  3. It Seems Like a Mighty Long Time by Angela Jackson



Poetry ~ journals:


  1. The Hopkins Review, Summer 2018 [birthday gift from Spouse]
  2. Pen-In-Hand, January 2018
  3. Poetry, September 2018


American Cultures:


  1. Al’ America: Travels through America’s Arab and Islamic Roots by Jonathan Curiel
  2. The Iroquois and Their History by Genevieve St. Lawrence
  3. Native American Confederacies by Anna Carew-Miller




  1. An Unkindness of Ghosts by Rivers Solomon* {MC is nonbinary & autistic; TW: grimdark}
  2. Banner of the Damned by Sherwood Smith
  3. Horizon: Sharing Knife 4 by Lois McMaster Bujold
  4. The Wanderers by Meg Howrey
  5. [Harry Potter AU] Oh God Not Again! by Sarah1281
  6. [TV] Stranger Things, season 1



*Author, who is also autistic, clarified to me that they identify: “as nonbinary, agender, and also a woman. It’s weird.”

That’s so cool!!

Dream: 8.14.18

August 16, 2018

I’m carpooling with 2 middle-aged women in the early morning (much earlier than I would normally be awake, never mind doing things and being social), on our way to an educational conference-thing. During the drive, I recollect I was mailed an information packet which I forgot at home.

When we arrive, we split up.

I collect a new packet at the registration table. It’s 7:30 a.m., and the first events don’t begin until 8. I have time to grab coffee in the cafeteria, maybe a pastry, refresh my sense of why I’m here by reading the packet.

Except at the cafeteria, I’m hailed by a man sitting at a long table filled with people in some type of uniform. He says he wants me to be the lone woman in his group. I’m certain I see women at the table; also, I’m not a woman, but do I want to make an announcement to a tableful of strangers, still half asleep? No. So I sit with them.

He seems like he wants to know about me, but he doesn’t ask anything. I drink my coffee, eat my food, try to wake up. Wish I was sitting at an empty table, alone, reading my packet.


At some point, I’m aware that I was recruited to come to this thing. That someone wanted me specifically. Whatever the topic is isn’t within my usual cluster of interests, but it’s intriguing to be pursued.


At a different point, I enter an arched doorway, like for an abbey. No other people are around, the place is quiet, the air cool, the light filtered.

I think “Benedictine”. I smell something that evokes a full-body sense of welcome. (I hadn’t known my bodymind coded any smell as that.) I’m reminded of Glen Ellyn, but I don’t know why.

Unconnected to the conference-thing, the carpool, the people at the cafeteria table, but definitely entwined with this specific site — where I’ve never been before — I feel like I’m exactly where I should be.



Improvising is good, while “study” isn’t going to help.

Honoring my own preferences is good. (I would’ve answered questions, and probably been pleased with any friendly interest. But if you thought I’d smooth out possible social obligations based on perceived gender, I won’t.)

I followed my curiosity, and discovered a deeper welcome than any planned human gathering could’ve provided.


I perceive why “Glen Ellyn” could be part of feeling welcome — early childhood. “Benedictine”, though, is puzzling. I haven’t been Catholic in almost 32 years, and have no fond attachments to the buildings of my (Benedictine) high school. I was rarely in the nearby abbey, and I think I was never alone there.

There was no sense of  deity or ritual; it was more like… hidden alcoves, the sweep of space, not ever being able to know the whole history of it, that beckoned me.

Scholarship, maybe. But in my own wandering fashion. Sensitivity to place. Respect for limits of others and myself.


Dream: 8.13.18

August 14, 2018


Spouse and I were bobbing along in deep river water (not swimming, not treading water), watching critters in the water with us. I saw cool small fish… right before they were gobbled up by a bigger (yellow) fish, 3 separate times. That was sad.

I saw an (also upright, but fully submerged) bird shaped sort of like a penguin, but bigger. Spouse immediately recognized its sort by name (?!).

Later, where the water was much shallower, we were sort of dogpaddling, when we saw a whale’s tail, and it surfaced right by us. I was entranced, but Spouse was miffed.

The whole time, I regretted not having a notebook with me, and was hoping I could remember all the cool critters so I could write them down. I planned to sketch the penguin-bird.



Spouse, the driver, has stopped our car at a gas station, to replenish our fuel before meeting back up with my parents and assorted family members, so we can ‘travel in caravan’ to some further destination.

Then, we’re inside the building, chatting about nothing in particular, when Spouse pushes a button/pulls a lever and suddenly there are steps leading to a basement access, which he descends toward. A door opens, and he steps into a ‘cage’ as its filling with muddy water. He leaves (!).

{Within the dream} I understand this to mean that this is the way to ‘cross’ under the Lake, to where my parents are, on the other side. But… am I supposed to hold my breath in the water? How high does the water go? Does your head go under? Are you in the dark? What should I expect?

I can’t, I won’t, enter a watery cage without knowing any of that.

But with Spouse gone, there’s no one to ask. I dither.


Abruptly, the entire gas station starts moving, picks up speed. It’s become a train.

At first, my big issue is that we’re traveling so fast, by the time I figure out where we’ve arrived at, we might be 20, 50, even 100 miles away from my parents. Will that distance mean they will abandon me wherever I’m at? How much of a distance isn’t ‘too much’ bother to come meet me?

I discover that the train is actually on a route, so presumably, it’ll eventually arrive back at where Spouse and I encountered it. However, when? For how long?


Nightmare begins:

I will have to call someone for help.

I pull out my phone, and — as always happens in a dream like this — I cannot get the phone’s number pad to appear. (Nor my phone’s contact list.)

I go through anything and everything, trying screen after screen, but no number pad. (This lasts a looooooong time.)

I go searching for someone else, find people seated as if this really was a train. I sit down next to a woman in her 20s, with curly brown hair. I tell her a bit of my issue, she plays around with my phone, too, but it doesn’t work for her either.

A boy walks by, 12, 13, talking (via headset) to friends in a farther compartment. I stop him, figuring he’s tech-savvy; he exchanges seats with the woman. I introduce myself, explain my problem.

He works on it a while, confers with his friends. Everyone’s stumped.

I confide in them that actually reaching my parents will be highly unpleasant, as they will heap insults on my head for being ‘so stupid’. I explain I’m actually quite smart, except for this blindspot with my phone.

A short smiling woman with short white hair, looking to be maybe 5-6 years older than me, approaches me to tell me my (new) short haircut looks really good on me. I thank her, pleased. (I realize for a quick second that I could really savor the comment, the lovely positive feedback, if only I wasn’t in the midst of this crisis.)

Later still, a guy in his 60s in a sharp suit, comes by and wants to help. He works in some high-tech security-related field.

At one point, my phone expands into tablet-sized, and all 4 of us are peering at the screen’s wonders. But still, no numbers.

Finally, finally, I give up on all this, and, defeated, ask to borrow someone’s phone. The security guy offers his.

I explain to him, too, how dreadful hearing from my parents is going to be. I’m shaking with nerves. (I internally wonder if giving him Spouse’s number is a bad idea — will it put Spouse on a list somewhere — but realize everyone is probably on a list somewhere. In any case, I really need to talk to someone I know, so…)

I can’t remember Spouse’s phone number, type in something starting with 669. Realize that’s not it. Consider (only for a few seconds) calling my parents. Then I take a deep breath, and type in the correct number for Spouse.

The security guy’s display shows the call being connected, with a visual display of its route. I only recall one leg — it reached Oklahoma City. It seemed to be taking a really long time to connect, but looking at the display was the first thing (since seeing the water critters) that made me feel interested and engaged, that made me feel like myself.

I woke up.



Spouse and I are re-watching season 1 of Stranger Things, so that’s likely a proximate reason for this dream. But also, the trilp.


I feel myself when I’m observing my environment, when I’m noticing my neighbors big and small.


When I’m unexpectedly left alone, (in the dream) I don’t observe my situation and experiment. No, I turn to a device, to technology, but not to address my immediate issue.

I try to reach out to people who are going to scream at me, first; not ask me what’s going on, or how they can help; and definitely not people who would encourage and affirm my choices.

Why am I so afraid of assessing where I am? What do I want to do next?


It’s almost like… when I’m uncertain and scared, if I’m not being screamed at, I… lose confidence in my abilities to assess, experiment, improvise.

Meeting challenges skillfully is not at all why I’m useful to my family of origin {I almost wrote, “…is not why I’m valued and appreciated”, but hahaha, that’s crazy talk}. I’m useful as a bad example, that everyone else feels superior to. I’m not supposed to succeed at anything.


What’s going on in my life that makes these kinds of dreams recur?


Maybe I’m on the cusp of a creative breakthrough, but I’m unconsciously afraid to follow through with the daring leaps required because that would explicitly mean I was relying on my own judgment?

Reading List 8 of 2018

July 31, 2018

Covers the period from 7.10.2018 through 8.1.18


I own 7 of these items. I watched 1 item in the cinema/on Netflix/Amazon/HBO/YouTube/ Vimeo. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 4 of the books and movies. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 28 items.





Pacific Northwest:


  1. Art of the Northwest Coast by Aldona Jonaitis {FN-various}
  2. Growing Pains: An Autobiography by Emily Carr
  3. The Hidden Forest: The Biography of an Ecosystem by Jon R. Luoma
  4. Native Peoples of the Plateau by Krystyna Poray Goddu
  5. Theodore Roethke: The Garden Master by Rosemary Sullivan
  6. The Thunder Tree: Lessons from an Urban Wildland by Robert Michael Pyle
  7. The Triggering Town: Lectures and Essays on Poetry and Writing by Richard Hugo
  8. William Stafford | Crossing Unmarked Snow: Further Views on the Writer’s Vocation, ed. Paul Merchant and Vincent Wixon



Ursula Le Guin:


  1. Sixty Odd: New Poems
  2. [SFF] A Wizard of Earthsea
  3. [SFF] The Wild Girls plus…



PNW Poetry:


  1. Cry of Time: Poems by Hazel Hall [1928]
  2. Day and Night: Poems by Dorothy Livesay [1944]
  3. Deep Down Things: Poems of the Inland Pacific Northwest, edited by Ron McFarland, et al.
  4. Harsh and Lovely Land: The Major Canadian Poets and the Making of a Canadian Tradition by Tom Marshall [1979]
  5. The Holding Hours: Poems by Christianne Balk
  6. Poems for People by Dorothy Livesay [1947]



Information science:


  1. Crash Course in Cataloging for Non-Catalogers by Allison G. Kaplan
  2. Metadata by Jeffrey Pomerantz






  1. 180 More Poems, selected by Billy Collins
  2. A Love Song, A Death Rattle, A Battle Cry by Kyle “Guante” Tran Myhre
  3. Break the Glass by Jean Valentine
  4. Cenzontle by Marcelo Hernandez Castillo
  5. The Cooke Book: A Seasoning of Poets, ed. Michael S. Glaser [Maryland]
  6. The Earth Is Not Flat by Katharine Coles
  7. On Poetry by Glyn Maxwell
  8. Your Native Land, Your Life by Adrienne Rich





  1. Buffalo Soldier by Maurice Broaddus
  2. The Calculating Stars: A Lady Astronaut Novel by Mary Robinette Kowal
  3. The Drowning Eyes by Emily Foster
  4. The Litany of Earth by Ruthanna Emrys
  5. Winter Tide by Ruthanna Emrys {read 2x}
  6. Deep Roots by Ruthanna Emrys
  7. The Only Harmless Great Thing by Brooke Bolander
  8. Witchmark by C. L. Polk
  9. [TV] Stranger Things, season 1 & season 2




  1. The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman
  2. The Culture Code: The Secrets of Highly Successful Groups by Daniel Coyle
  3. [Graphic novel] The Prince and the Dressmaker by Jen Wang
  4. [YA] Not Now, Not Ever by Lily Anderson



Reading List 7 of 2018

July 5, 2018

Covers the period from 6.15.2018 through 7.1.18


I own 1 of these items. I watched 3 items in the cinema/on Netflix/Amazon/HBO/YouTube/ Vimeo. Baltimore County Public Library system supplied 7 of the books and movies. Libraries outside of Baltimore County, via Inter-Library Loan, supplied the other 15 items.



Baltimore & Maryland:

  1. Baltimore ’68: Riots and Rebirth in an American City, edited by Jessica Elfenbein, et al.
  2. [Film] Hairspray, directed & written by John Waters
  3. Very Strange Bedfellows: The Short and Unhappy Marriage of Richard Nixon and Spiro Agnew by Jules Witcover


Cultural change:


  1. The Golden 13: Recollections of the First Black Naval Officers by Paul Stillwell
  2. The Good Girls Revolt [Newsweek Title VII case] by Lynn Povich
  3. Lady Bird and Lyndon: The Hidden Story of a Marriage that Made a President by Betty Boyd Caroli
  4. Near Black: White-to-Black Passing in American Culture by Baz Dreisinger
  5. Recollections of My Life as a Woman: The New York Years by Diane Di Prima
  6. [Fiction] If We Must Die: A novel of Tulsa’s 1921 Greenwood riot by Pat M. Carr


Biography & Memoir:


  1. Find the Good: Unexpected Life Lessons from a Small-town Obituary Writer by Heather Lende
  2. Fire in My Soul: Eleanor Holmes Norton by Joan Steinau Lester
  3. One Page at a Time: On a Writing Life by Pat M. Carr



  1. Emma, directed & written for the screen by Douglas McGrath
  2. Hayao Miyazaki’s Cosmologics by Adrian Randall
  3. Obit: An Inside Look at Life on the New York Times Obituaries Desk, directed by Vanessa Gould
  4. Pride & Prejudice, directed by Joe Wright
  5. The Princess and the Frog, directed by John Musker and Ron Clements
  6. Wreck-It Ralph, directed by Rich Moore
  7. [TV] Mozart in the Jungle (part of season 4), created by Alex Timbers, et al.




  1. Artificial Condition: The Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells
  2. Binti: The Night Masquerade by Nnedi Okorafor
  3. Penric’s Mission by Lois McMaster Bujold
  4. Tarnished City by Vic James




  1. Anxious to Talk About It: Helping White Christians* Talk Faithfully about Racism by Carolyn B. Helsel
  2. Modern Scottish Women: Painters and Sculptors, 1885–1965, edited by Alice Strang
  3. Twilight Children: 3 Voices No One Heard Until a Therapist Listened by Torey Hayden



*I am not Christian