The Artist’s Way – exercises 4

Week 5, Sense of Possibility

1. The biggest lack in my life is self-confidence in my own resourcefulness.
2. The greatest joy in my life is being creative.
3. My largest time commitment is sleep? Reading books?
4. As I play more, I work mellower, happier.
5. I feel guilty that I am finally in a place where I have to concentrate on what works for me.
6. I worry that no one wants to read my poetry. It’s “too playful” and “not serious”.
7. If my dreams come true, my family will (a) not notice; (b) who counts as family?
8. I sabotage myself so people will not expect “too much” of me.
9. If I let myself feel, I’m angry that I’m 46.5 and only now rediscovering Hibby.
10. One reason I get sad sometimes is 20 years lost to trauma-onset PTSD; 40 yrs of time with Hibby (awake), lost.

 

What would I try if it weren’t “too crazy”?

• Go to Alabama/Mississippi/Louisiana myself.
• Go to Puget Sound myself.
• Write a book, illustrated with my own photography and other art.
• Get my poetry published in print.
• Find friends that are joyful, creative, and encouraging. Who help me improve and meet bigger challenges.
• Take myself seriously.

 

5 more imaginary lives?

1. Rock star
2. Gourmet chef
3. Creator of crossword puzzles
4. Rodeo performer
5. Veterinarian

 

If I were 20 and had money, I’d . . .

• Live in Europe for a while
• Immerse myself in another language to learn it
• Become a sculptor
• Develop a creative start-up business
• Collaborate with other artists

 

Synchronicity this week?

The same day I wrote in morning pages that I wanted to find a way to get to Alabama, but not only do I not know anyone in Alabama, I don’t know anyone who’s ever been to Alabama, I received [Friend]’s misdirected-returned-and-re-mailed holiday 2012 card, which mentioned that [family member] lives in Alabama. (So, I do know someone who’s visited Alabama.)

 

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